Some Radical Stuff...Am I Dangerous To America? O_o
Here's some words I sent to my uncle in an e-mail about some of the stuff I actually think about.
I don't think I can tell anyone what my dominant emotion is, because it would be most likely scare them, so I just keep everything bottled up inside. I know it's not very healthy, but this seems to be the only way I or anyone else can be happy or to not get in trouble....is it possible to become persecuted via emotions? If so, then I really don't think I would like to be human anymore, but live as a machine. If something bad happens to them, they don't complain. If someone treats them horridly, they show no emotion. I think that by telling people my problems, I'm complaining, and I feel that I should do something rather than complain, thus, I try to show as little emotion as possible and give the explanation for my action. Tell me, does it really matter the opinions of a person? Do thoughts speak action than words?
It seems the household I live in, as well as taking Sociology, Psychology, and Psychology II have given me a wider, bigger view of life. I know my mother is a lesbian (or at least this is the term dubbed in this society for her sexual preference), and that this has never stopped her from loving me before. So what if she is? It hasn't changed her personality, so why should I care? In fact, why should anyone care what anyone's sexual preference is? Because of the Bible? Call me radical, call me blasphemous; I don't care, but I firmly believe that as a person is human, they have the right to love whomever they want, unrestrained by any institution or power than is on this lil' rock we call Earth. Anyone can manipulate the truth, or what has been said in the past, right? Many people who follow any faith related to God say that God is love, yet they discriminate against anyone whom does not share their views. And, if I am correct, it is God's place to judge any human that has died, or any animal possibly for that matter. Yet, I see and hear violence of people who are "different". Maybe they can't help themselves for being that way? Maybe it (fate, or God) chose them to be the way that they are. Who are we to do God's job? What nerve! ...But, you know what, that seems to be the way the world, or at least American society works. Maybe I'm just getting ahead of myself, or I'm restating the obvious fact that the world and life is not fair, as soon as we are born, we are meant to die, and that as long as there are people about, there is no such thing as a utopia. Can anyone really be the ones they want to be with society tugging at their limbs like a sorrowed marrionette doll or puppet? Is it really true that when in order to please the ones around us, we must please themselves? What if we do become ourselves? Will they like us? Will we be labeled as "satanic" or "demon spawn", "radical", "deviant", or otherwise? I've really done some thinking on discrimination and racism? If you think me as trouble now, you have not seen anything yet to come. One way or another, I will shake the foundation in which someone stands upon for better or worse. And it will be a sweet moment to savor. Perhaps this is my revenge upon the world for all the "problems" that I've been through. I really don't know.......should I be the next one to shock America? Are we really just stuck on some ball about to be hurled into some other firey ball locked in an eternal struggle for good versus evil, happiness against unhappiness, strife, and the darkest of emotions to never have it resolved?
Scary stuff, ain't it? Well, guess what? As soon as I get my thoughts in gear, you're sure to see more. >_> I am not in the best of moods right now.
I don't think I can tell anyone what my dominant emotion is, because it would be most likely scare them, so I just keep everything bottled up inside. I know it's not very healthy, but this seems to be the only way I or anyone else can be happy or to not get in trouble....is it possible to become persecuted via emotions? If so, then I really don't think I would like to be human anymore, but live as a machine. If something bad happens to them, they don't complain. If someone treats them horridly, they show no emotion. I think that by telling people my problems, I'm complaining, and I feel that I should do something rather than complain, thus, I try to show as little emotion as possible and give the explanation for my action. Tell me, does it really matter the opinions of a person? Do thoughts speak action than words?
It seems the household I live in, as well as taking Sociology, Psychology, and Psychology II have given me a wider, bigger view of life. I know my mother is a lesbian (or at least this is the term dubbed in this society for her sexual preference), and that this has never stopped her from loving me before. So what if she is? It hasn't changed her personality, so why should I care? In fact, why should anyone care what anyone's sexual preference is? Because of the Bible? Call me radical, call me blasphemous; I don't care, but I firmly believe that as a person is human, they have the right to love whomever they want, unrestrained by any institution or power than is on this lil' rock we call Earth. Anyone can manipulate the truth, or what has been said in the past, right? Many people who follow any faith related to God say that God is love, yet they discriminate against anyone whom does not share their views. And, if I am correct, it is God's place to judge any human that has died, or any animal possibly for that matter. Yet, I see and hear violence of people who are "different". Maybe they can't help themselves for being that way? Maybe it (fate, or God) chose them to be the way that they are. Who are we to do God's job? What nerve! ...But, you know what, that seems to be the way the world, or at least American society works. Maybe I'm just getting ahead of myself, or I'm restating the obvious fact that the world and life is not fair, as soon as we are born, we are meant to die, and that as long as there are people about, there is no such thing as a utopia. Can anyone really be the ones they want to be with society tugging at their limbs like a sorrowed marrionette doll or puppet? Is it really true that when in order to please the ones around us, we must please themselves? What if we do become ourselves? Will they like us? Will we be labeled as "satanic" or "demon spawn", "radical", "deviant", or otherwise? I've really done some thinking on discrimination and racism? If you think me as trouble now, you have not seen anything yet to come. One way or another, I will shake the foundation in which someone stands upon for better or worse. And it will be a sweet moment to savor. Perhaps this is my revenge upon the world for all the "problems" that I've been through. I really don't know.......should I be the next one to shock America? Are we really just stuck on some ball about to be hurled into some other firey ball locked in an eternal struggle for good versus evil, happiness against unhappiness, strife, and the darkest of emotions to never have it resolved?
Scary stuff, ain't it? Well, guess what? As soon as I get my thoughts in gear, you're sure to see more. >_> I am not in the best of moods right now.
posted by Kasumi @ 7:54 PM
1 Comments:
At 4:14 AM,
Kasumi said…
....^_^ The world doesn't seem so bad anymore. X3 But, what I'll put up next when I get the chance will probably push people further away from me. I've been thinking about you, Lupa-kun, since I haven't contacted you in a long time. *.* School and family have been stressing me out majorly, but I feel refreshed....I think it's just the matter of Courtney living in the house with me that I've been really up-n-down with my emotions. I think I've changed somewhat, though....but sometimes, the changes that I put myself through......;I feel as if they go unnoticed.
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