The Weight On My Shoulders

Ever tried to please more than one person? It's a daily thing for me. And I always try to do as best as I can for everyone so that I don't get in trouble, or at least to keep everyone amused. A friend said to me last night, "You're weak," just because I tend to overthink some concepts in video games, and stuff like that. And he's absolutely right. I don't even have enough courage to tell anyone that I don't like it when they pick on me. And it's true. I don't want to get in trouble with anyone, so it just let things slide by. I wish I was what everyone wanted me to be, that way everyone could be happy. I've forgotten how to make myself happy, so I guess I use their happiness to temporarily fill me. I'm so afraid to really be myself, because I fear the rejection of the ones closest to me...and I feel I always get the shorter end of the stick, but I don't complain. Why? Because no one likes someone who complains all the time, especially when they can do something about their predictament. I don't do the things on my mind that usually come to me because I'm a late thinker, you see, someone that usual has words like "Maybe I should have done this or that.." I wish that I wasn't so forgiving sometimes, but I guess it's second nature, you know?