Resident Ebil....Oooh! Spooky!

Here are the results of some of the little RE quizzes I took:

You are Dr Clarissa Harlech!
You are an ordinary person caught in an extremely
difficult situation because of your trusting
nature and tendency to rely on others. You're
worried that anything you do now will get you
into trouble one way or another. As a result of
this, you lack confidence and have become
afraid of absolutely everything. You are
conscientious and care deeply, and you feel
guilty about what you've done even though
you're not to blame for your current situation.
Because of this, you try and make up for this
by helping others whenever you can. You hope
that one day you can make things right again,
but first you need to accept that it wasn't
your fault.


Which 'Resident Evil - Project Lucifer' character are you?
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You're a hunter. The evil frog of doom with a knack
for tickin' people off by chopping off their
heads.


What Resident Evil monster are you
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Spence


Which Resident Evil movie character are you?
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............I guess I can be greedy at times. But that's not my downfall. It's my underconfidence, mistrust, and paranoia. I think I know myself well enough to say that..

Wesker - you use your intelligence and manipulative
skills for your own personal gain, you dirty
rat!


Which S.T.A.R.S. member in Resident Evil are you most like?
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But I'm not the one in the wheelchair, am I?! XD
You may not be the oldest or strongest person, but
your quick and smart. In tough physical
situations you find difficulty and need help
from others. On the good side, you'll do what
ever you can to help others and others find
themselves drawn to you. You are Sherry Birkin.


Which main Resident Evil Character are you like and why?
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It is kinda true...I'm not exactly fit..but I am slimming down!

Miku


Which Survival Horror Heroin Are You?
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Now, for all of those who don't know who Miku is, she's the character from a video game series called Fatal Frame. Do a bit of research on it.
Oh, and check this out!


You're a Zombie Attack, every game has them, in
fact they're all based on them. Feel
important? you should.


What Resident Evil game cliche are you?
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Later there will be more..

A Death In The Family

I just got the news from my mother today while she called me from my aunt's: My grand-aunt, Tish, is dead. From cancer, as far I know. But, you know, death is a natural element in life. The Lord gives, and the Lord takes, or what ever deity have you. Her suffering is over, and I should be happy....but I can't help but cry. I didn'w know her that well, I know that she was kind, yet firm. I'm trying not to cry, but I just can't help it. I don't know why...They say that crying is a way to get over stress, or something else...I forgot. I'll mourn, but not for long. A person can't spend all their time mourning over the death of another, or their life will cease to exist, and only be in a standstill, you know what I mean?

Question Authority! Don't Hop In A Car You Feel No Control Over! OR Labels Are For Social Soup Cans!

I've been doing a lot more thinking recently, and I've been trying to set some things right. Let me take you on a trip in history to guide you through my thoughts.
How many of you remember The Who, or know The Who? The Who is a musical band. What makes them so significant? Well, check this out. The places where I got the information will be at the bottom of this post.
"On the day of December 3rd, 1979, eleven concert ticketholders in a crowd of 8,000-10,000, or perhaps more, were crushed to death and scores were injured trying to enter a sold-out rock concert by The Who in Cincinnati."
I know what you're going to say. "This happens in concerts and the like all over the world all the time." Right? Something along the lines? Do a little research on the words "Sheffield, England 1989". Try the news, more specifically in the sports section. Another one with wild crowds, right? Well, let me go on further with the words of Jane Elliott's poem, "I Am White": "I am better than you. I am smarter, I am more attractive. You are stupid and lay. Your children are dirty and rude. I and my kind will always be superior to you and yours. I am white."
"White supremacy", eh? I'm not finished yet. And I have nothing against people who fit the "white/Caucasian" description, the physical one, mental, etc ones.
Let's also absorb some of the key points in Gustav LeBon's "The Crowd":
"Feelings and moods circulating within group."
"Individuals are highly receptive to being led."
"They give way to the Collective Mindset of the Group."
"Individuals cease to be individuals."
We can see that is evident in groups, more or less out of control groups. I'm gonna break list some words, and see what three dictionaries have to say about them. What does the Bible say about them?
Straight.
Bisexual
Gay
Homosexual
This is what Dictionary.com says about the 4 words:
Straight- Extending continuously in the same direction without curving: a straight line.
Following a direct or correct method or approach; systematic: straight reasoning.
Characterized by undeviating support, as of a principle or a political party: always votes a straight party line; a straight Democrat.
Not deviating from what is considered socially normal, usual, or acceptable; conventional.
Conventional to an extreme degree.
Heterosexual.
Not deviating from the normal or strict form: straight Freudian analysis.
Of or relating to a straight man.
Bisexual-Of or relating to both sexes.
Having both male and female reproductive organs; hermaphroditic.
Botany. Denoting a single flower that contains functional staminate and pistillate structures; perfect.
Of, relating to, or having a sexual orientation to persons of either sex. n.
A bisexual organism; a hermaphrodite.
A bisexual person.
Gay-
Of, relating to, or having a sexual orientation to persons of the same sex.
Showing or characterized by cheerfulness and lighthearted excitement; merry.
Bright or lively, especially in color: a gay, sunny room.
Given to social pleasures.
Dissolute; licentious. A person whose sexual orientation is to persons of the same sex.
A man whose sexual orientation is to men: an alliance of gays and lesbians.
But, umm...where did sexual meanings pop up from? Ask American society, or the other note at the bottom of this word: The word gay is now standard in its use to refer to homosexuals, in large part because it is the term that most gay people prefer in referring to themselves. Gay is distinguished from homosexual primarily by the emphasis it places on the cultural and social aspects of homosexuality as opposed to sexual practice. Many writers reserve gay for males, but the word is also used to refer to both sexes; when the intended meaning is not clear in the context, the phrase gay and lesbian may be used. Like the other names of social groups derived from adjectives (for example, Black), gay may be regarded as offensive when used as a noun to refer to particular individuals, as in There were two gays on the panel; here phrasing such as gay members should be used instead. But there is no objection to the use of the noun in the plural to refer collectively either to gay men or to gay men and lesbians, so long as it is clear whether men alone or both men and women are being discussed.
Homosexual-
Of, relating to, or having a sexual orientation to persons of the same sex.n. Usage Problem
A homosexual person; a gay man or a lesbian.
Usage Note: Many people now avoid using homosexual because of the emphasis this term places on sexuality. Indeed, the words gay and lesbian, which stress cultural and social matters over sex, are frequently better choices. Homosexual is most objectionable when used as a noun; here gay man and gay woman or lesbian and their plural forms are called for. It is generally unobjectionable when used adjectivally, as in a homosexual relationship, although gay, lesbian, or same-sex are also available for adjectival use.
Straight- to be ok with how things are going.
"you want a piece?""no man, im straight
1. heterosexual2. used to describe a person who does not participate in "dangerous" activity such as drugs, alchohol, sex or criminal activity. A good girl/guy.3. to tell it straight - to tell the truth4.
1. Did you see how he reacted to that guy coming on to him? He is so straight.2. Sally is so straight, she never breaks any rules.3. "You being straight?""Seriously, it really happened."
Gay-Wh1. jovial or happy, good-spirited2. a homosexual male or female3. often used to describe something stupid or unfortunate. originating from homophobia. quite preferable among many teenage males in order to buff up their "masculinity"
1. "We'll have a gay old time."2. "You DO know he's gay. Notice his homoerotic pornography collection."3. "Man, these seats are gay. I can't even see what's going on!"
Bisexual-A person who is emotionaly, sexually, physically and spiritually attracted to both genders. A person who also can find it hard to decide which sex to be with; but isn't someone who does it for attention, or desperation.
Homosexual-a person whose sexual preference is members of the same sex. Male homosexuals are usually referred to as gays, and females as lesbians. Homosexuality is not a perversion or a disease, but merely an aspect of sexuality that has been around for thousands of years.
Why are so many people homophobic? Homosexuals are great! Men should like gays since they remove twice as many men and no women from the dating pool, and lesbians, since they apparently give them something to watch; vice versa for women. Not only that, but homosexuals by default don't add to the already grossly swollen human population...
And, finally, this is what Merriam-Webster
Gay-1 a : happily excited :
b : keenly alive and exuberant : having or inducing high spirits2 a gayb : brilliant in color3 : given to social pleasures; also : LICENTIOUS, HOMOSEXUAL: of, relating to, or used by homosexuals
Homosexual-1 : of, relating to, or characterized by a tendency to direct sexual desire toward another of the same sex2 : of, relating to, or involving sexual intercourse between persons of the same sex
Bisexual-1 a : possessing characters of both sexes:
b : sexually oriented toward both sexes2 : of, relating to, or involving both sexes
Straight-g (1) : exhibiting no deviation from what is established or accepted as usual, normal, or proper : >CONVENTIONAL, h : HETEROSEXUAL
At kind of point am I trying to make? Well, as far as I'm concerned, these words really don't exist to me in the context of sexual preference. In fact, I use the word "gay" relating to happy or positive emotions, something along those lines. And let's take a look at the word "straight"...that kinda means to go in the same direction without curving. Now what does this have to do with crowds? Lemme explain:
I firmly believe that all organisms have the right to choose whomever they love, regardless of any institution or power that is on this lil' clay ball we call Earth. We cannot choose whom we really love. It just happens. And we usually know what we feel when it happens.
We can choose, however, what we hate. What we hate is for the most part taught to us by external sources, and personal experience. The other portion is what we fear or what we do not know. From friends, family, from what we've heard/said, anything of the sort falls here.
The Bible can say whatever you want of it to say, but because America as far as I know predominantly serves a religion relating to God (example, Baptist, Catholic, Christian), the Bible does not condone any bisexual or homosexual behavior, but thinks of it as a great and terrible sin.
Look at my "Closet" theory, and get a good read of it.
So many people have such a problem with the two behaviors that they will kill people for it. Isn't that a bit contradictory? Christians, or people who serve God killing other people because they can't help themselves, because they're different? Anti-Homo/Bisexual sites and organizations? Make sure they cannot move about anywhere politically, and treat them worse than dirt everyday? Ah, but they are still people. And in the Bible, doesn't murder register as a sin? Hatred as well? I'm no saint, believe me, I hate. I bear grudges. But, I treat the people whom in which I hate with respect. Sometimes, if I find their position rather pathetic, I'll laugh at them from the inside or help them.I just wish, deep down, that we could get to know each other without the border of ignorance...that's what I really wish...you know what I mean? I suppose what I'm trying to say is that we need to not go with the "mind" of everyone's mind, but with our own. For all the hetrosexual people who can't stand anyone else unless they are of that orientation, ask yourself this question: Did they do anything to hurt me? Are they trying to encourage me into something I dont want?
Don't be afraid to know people who deviate from the norms of whatever society you live in. You may be missing out on someone who might actually care about you and will do anything for you. -_-(_) And anyone that's reading this who's homosexual or bisexual: I'm not trying to do anything to hurt any of you. This is just what I've been thinking over an accumulation of months. And, well, how exactly can I know something about this? My mother is homosexual, and so is her beloved. My grandmother and my father cannot stand this by any means, and hope to impose their religions on us. But, as far as I know, my mother and her beloved have done nothing wrong on any counts other than go by their choices and their hearts! >_< Are we really so caught up in society's norms that we will actually hurt those who have done nothing to hurt us? But, you know what, my mother did not tell me until roughly July of two years ago, and I've been doing a great deal of thinking. And this is what I came up with?

My mother still loves me for who I am, regardless of her preference. So what if she is homosexual? What has that fact done to me or for me? Has it changed her behavior towards me? No; she's still the same mother I know and love.

It's really changed my perspective of those with different preferences. And, you know what? For now, I'm hetro. But, as any factor in the universe can change, that can change as well.

Catch m'drift? But, somehow, I don't think we can escape social labels...I guess I'm being a bit hypocritical...but I'm really trying not to. If I am, let me appologise.

Some Radical Stuff...Am I Dangerous To America? O_o

Here's some words I sent to my uncle in an e-mail about some of the stuff I actually think about.

I don't think I can tell anyone what my dominant emotion is, because it would be most likely scare them, so I just keep everything bottled up inside. I know it's not very healthy, but this seems to be the only way I or anyone else can be happy or to not get in trouble....is it possible to become persecuted via emotions? If so, then I really don't think I would like to be human anymore, but live as a machine. If something bad happens to them, they don't complain. If someone treats them horridly, they show no emotion. I think that by telling people my problems, I'm complaining, and I feel that I should do something rather than complain, thus, I try to show as little emotion as possible and give the explanation for my action. Tell me, does it really matter the opinions of a person? Do thoughts speak action than words?
It seems the household I live in, as well as taking Sociology, Psychology, and Psychology II have given me a wider, bigger view of life. I know my mother is a lesbian (or at least this is the term dubbed in this society for her sexual preference), and that this has never stopped her from loving me before. So what if she is? It hasn't changed her personality, so why should I care? In fact, why should anyone care what anyone's sexual preference is? Because of the Bible? Call me radical, call me blasphemous; I don't care, but I firmly believe that as a person is human, they have the right to love whomever they want, unrestrained by any institution or power than is on this lil' rock we call Earth. Anyone can manipulate the truth, or what has been said in the past, right? Many people who follow any faith related to God say that God is love, yet they discriminate against anyone whom does not share their views. And, if I am correct, it is God's place to judge any human that has died, or any animal possibly for that matter. Yet, I see and hear violence of people who are "different". Maybe they can't help themselves for being that way? Maybe it (fate, or God) chose them to be the way that they are. Who are we to do God's job? What nerve! ...But, you know what, that seems to be the way the world, or at least American society works. Maybe I'm just getting ahead of myself, or I'm restating the obvious fact that the world and life is not fair, as soon as we are born, we are meant to die, and that as long as there are people about, there is no such thing as a utopia. Can anyone really be the ones they want to be with society tugging at their limbs like a sorrowed marrionette doll or puppet? Is it really true that when in order to please the ones around us, we must please themselves? What if we do become ourselves? Will they like us? Will we be labeled as "satanic" or "demon spawn", "radical", "deviant", or otherwise? I've really done some thinking on discrimination and racism? If you think me as trouble now, you have not seen anything yet to come. One way or another, I will shake the foundation in which someone stands upon for better or worse. And it will be a sweet moment to savor. Perhaps this is my revenge upon the world for all the "problems" that I've been through. I really don't know.......should I be the next one to shock America? Are we really just stuck on some ball about to be hurled into some other firey ball locked in an eternal struggle for good versus evil, happiness against unhappiness, strife, and the darkest of emotions to never have it resolved?

Scary stuff, ain't it? Well, guess what? As soon as I get my thoughts in gear, you're sure to see more. >_> I am not in the best of moods right now.

A Period of Enlightenment?

Just last night, I had a thought, no, a theory, about the psyche of a person. Well, I think so. Here it is:

At birth, we are given a closet. And at first, there is only one person in the closet. But as the person grows, the person gets more people in the closet, thus the closet becomes in need of expansion. And it does, or it shrinks unconsciously depending on the interactions and environment of this person. And throughout the years of the outside person's life, there are clothes that the person puts on for protection, or for masking whatever emotions that outer person has towards people, life, and everything else. Now, as the closet becomes full with people and clothes, the people inside the closet tend to fight. The person who becomes the most dominant of the people in the closet would become the true self of the outer person. Now, over time, the dominant person will change, and maybe even go back into the closet to become a stronger person.

I have made a character from this little period of enlightenment. I need to tie up some loose ends. Tell me what you think of this mental discovery I made and post it in the comments section.

Hot, cold, hot, cold, and you know what? I got a problem...

I've got the flu. And I think it's knocked my hypothalamus out of whack. I hate this hot/cold thing! But some good did come out of it: I got to see Bobobo-bo Bo-bobo (really strange anime), and a new episode of Naruto. But they kinda messed it up...I remember Kakashi's voice sounding lower. And my problem? I have a fixation for guys with grey/gray/silver hair....like: Sephiroth, Ansem, Dante, Virgil....*.* The list goes on.